p a s s i o n o r l o g i c

the absence of clarity 
in your motivations and decisions 
leads me to believe 
and understand 
that i can't just talk my way in 
to your vacancy  

tonight is a night 
i have to spent 
facing the cold 
  
i keep putting myself 
in the place to be hurt 
or let down 
though you may "initiate it" 
i never push it away 
giving victory to only 
my emotions 

using your comparison 
passion always wins 
dominating logic 

through your attempt at certainty 
i fell back into you 
never wondering 
what validated it 
this time 

 let down once again 
i try to understand that right now 
nothing permanent can be created 
  
struggling with my ideas and emotions 
i know the destiny 
of my eyes holding you 
i will see past everything 
and into the possibility 

but, nothing has happened on your part 
to have made you change your mind  
my feelings stay constant 
wounding me every time 
  
but i still don't know how to change it  

flowing through this cycle 
i convince myself 
that this time will be different   
i am not aware of how to comprehend 
that nothing can change 
unless something in one of us changes 
  
is there no space for us? 
i am not in control 
the change is not in me 
will there be a place for us? 

i don't know how 
  to make myself be stronger 
I don't know how 
  to separate you 
from the rest of the world  

you own a place 
far from where i hold everyone else  
  
in my decisions 
you are everpresent 
my intentions 
are not be in the place 
they should be i 

if i wouldn't do it without you 
why should i do it at all? 

i know no other solution 
than to allow absence 
its place in my sheets 
angry 
frustrated 
afraid 
i wait to see 
if i can push it away this time 
or if passion will once again 
destroy logic